So, I'm trying to build up my portfolio for my future work interviews.

My first is to get a new family portrait of my family.  The last good one that was taken was taken when I still had bangs!  Meaning that I had to be atleast 10 years old.

Anywho, my brothers are giving me shit about the picture.  I'm also using it as my parents Christmas gifts.  I need to have a color code, so to speak, for their outfits cause wearing seven different colors in an outside portrait will off set the image.  My brothers are bitching that I have no right to tell them what to wear.  What ever, they are still going to do it, by the pull of their hair.

I'm also going to do a family portriat of the Smith family, I used to babysit for them all the time.  They are being really cool about it.

I'm going bridemaids dress shopping on the 18th, and I'm really excited about that.  Although I am not ready to try on dresses in front of  her sister and friend who are a size 5 wet.  
I'm still trying to lose weight, but the start of school slowed me down with my diet and running.  Now I have to build back my run (which was a mile and a half).  It really sucks.

Also, I just want to freaking graduate from college.  As soon as I can sign up for Spring semster, I'm going to make double sure by my adivoser that I only need those four class next year as my last class ever...and then I'm going out and buying my class ring.

I just want out!!!!
I'm busy but I'm not.  My most worked class is Writing about Art and its not that bad, the research paper at the final will be, but right now it's not.

My other classes, well taking pictures isn't work for me, and my film class is just annoying.

Halloween is on a friday this year, and I'd thought it be cool to have a party.  But it seems that even with a MONTH to plan, people still can't go.  Work, other parties...I'm thinking that either I should just give up and be like, ok I guess a memo went around that since we're all 21 or older, we will no longer have parties.  Or wonder why, some of these people that are telling me no, still find away to have a drinking party and be able to go to that without an excuse.  Not trying to be mean here.  Or maybe that I need to plan like three months ahead.
I know that we're adults now, with jobs and lives, and such.  It's one night.  I've asked off work early, or taken a break from school work for friends parties before.  A month in advance, you can plan for that.  My parents have gotten invites to friends parties a month in advance and have worked so they can leave work early that day to join the party or if they have two parties that day they spilt.  Maybe that's just me and my families way of thinking.
I am canceling my Halloween party, cause it seems that 60% so far have posted me back with reasons on why they can't come.  So I guess instead of having fun, I'm going to be home alone, watching old horror movies, and waiting for little childern to come to my door.

Oh, and lately I've been in a pissy mood.  It might be PMS, but I'm not sure.  I've just been angry about everything lately and I don't know why.

mood: blank

So, my mom and I celabrated my birthday yesterday since we're all working today.  I had fun going out to dinner.
Then my mom and some friends of mine went shopping (I got kick ass tops and a really cute dress!!!):)
Then I got ice cream!

Then I got home, to see my dad before he went to bed.  Waiting for my was a bagged gift (with the greatest dolphin balloon ever!).
When I openned it I got a shock of a life time:
A laptop.  I have a freakin laptop!!!!!!!!!!

I worked today...:(
It was ok, my co-workers all were supportive on my b-day.

Hope to see many of you this weekend!

Oh and if you haven't seen (from the people who brought you the Kerry/Bush This Land vid), see it now...it is funny as hell!

JibJab - Time for Some Campaignin'

Really, you want to see the cutest kid in the WORLD and the greatest opera singer (even if you don't like opera, you will love this guy), WATCH THESE VIDS:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QVrAIPuFLhM&NR=1 (opera singer)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmwK5DtOcZA (cute girl)

mood: cheerful

So, I'm waiting for my Digital photo class to start. Why for the life of me I'm taking a Friday class I'll never know. I got lucky though, out of my 4 years of school, this is the first semster I have had a Friday class.
I can tell that Design 2 will be the death of me. I have to work with clay and such...it's 3-D design really. I can barely draw....this class is going to suck!
Italian seems like a fun class. I'm really into learning the langauge...so I'm looking forward to the class.
Photo 2...I'm always excited with working truly on my major. DARKROOM FUN!
Ligthing Topics might not be as bad as I thought it would. My teacher is a pro photographer and he's hopeing that two of our classes will be held at his studio!!!! I'm looking forward to this class.

Though (hopeful 4) will be exciting, this semster is going to be a lot of work!

Yesterday, while coming to school, thank god I was early, someone hit me in the back. I got into a vendor-bender. The girl that hit my car was really nice and very sorry.
It wasn't too bad. My back hurts a little (but a foam bat can do that) and the damage is just a small indentation of a nail from her lisense plate and a few black scraps. She wants to pay upfront, no insurance involed, we're going to get an estimite down, but the damage really isn't bad, and if it's a lot of money I'll just fix it later in life and we'll tell her that there was no real damage.

mood: aggravated

I want to have a cheap get together either Friday night or Saturday night (not Sunday...Fathers day...stay with your daddys:))

Cheap as in...Pizza Hut where we spilt a cheap pizza, and we come back to my place and watch a movie.

Just give me a call if you're free!

Plan: be at my house at 7 (or as soon as you get off of work) and when we're all there we'll head out. Just call about what day is better for you and I'll make a choice then. Don't worry for those who work the next day. It won't be a late thing...you can leave when you want....I just want a hang out day. Just food...and everything

21st song: "Here We Come A Caroling"
22nd songs: "Carol of the Bells"

So, the grand piano is in and it's been a bitch keeping my mother away from it.  I want to my aunts and uncle's to have an early x-mas cause my grandmother is still too sick to travel.  We had fun, my bitchy cousin was NICE TO ME!!!!  I was so freaked out.  Plus their new dog (a golden Lab)  which I have come to see that it is THE MOST CUTEST DOG IN THE ENTIRE WORLD!!!!!!  The puppy is three months old.  OH MY GOD I WANTED TO TAKE IT HOME!!!!!!!!!

Negative note, I think I am getting sick.  My noise is stuffy and I'm getting a bad headache.  I drove up, but I couldn't drive home on the fear that I'd fall asleep.  Tomorrow I have to go shopping for my dad's gift to my brother.  They got him a cd that he already helped himself into getting....which is dumb....you don't buy stuff for yourself the week of x-mas.  So, we're taking him back and I'm going to get him either Voltron or Transformers......ThuderKats is the back-up if either of those aren't there.  Why am I getting this and not my dad...who it is suppose to be from?  Cause my dad is lazy.   I have to wrap it too cause my father can't wrap.  God, my family is so weird.

mood: gloomy music: "Santa Clause is Coming To Town"

I got called into work today at 7:15 in the morning.   I'm dead.

I had a great time with Erica, Dani, and Maggie at Pizza Hut.  

My mind is too fried to think of something else to write.

Oh we had carolers today.   YEA!!!  I'll be doing that tomorrow!  By the way, if any of the carolers see this...more so Jason, I have to leave caroling early.  I forgot that we are acually having a birthday thing for my brother this year.

Yesterdays song: "The Hannukah Song"

mood: blank music: "Santa Clause Is Coming To Town"

I am done!!!!!  I handed in my last final thing and I am done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Thank you god/goddess!!!!!!!

So, guess what you all.....my dad out did himself for his wife this Christmas....he got my mom a black BABY GRAND PANIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It will be brought to our house on Saturday so, Saturday night through Christmas morning my mom will not be allowed in the living room.  I can not wait Christmas morning cause my mom is going to be so freaking excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am tried.....I'm done.

Oh by the way does anyone know where December went?  You know that month where it gets really, really cold and there's snow?   No that I'm complaining.  Sadly though, this was the last day.  It'll be in the 40's-50's the rest of the week then on the weekend the weather channel claims that it'll drop very fast and that there might be a chance of a white Christmas.  Welcome to Maryland weather.

mood: cheerful music: "Carol of the Bells"

The 15th's song: "Slient Night"
The 16th's song: "Caroling, Caroling"

Yea, so I am finally done that hell called a final report!!!!!!!  I lost track of how many hours I spent crying over that damn thing.  I finally finished x-mas shopping too.  I HATE SHOPPING!!!  And Marylanders can't drive....I think that I almost died twice the other day cause idiots don't know what "Yeild" means.

I have to go back up to Towson to turn in my report and go to my apartment and find my power cord....I have everything of my computer, but my power cord.  I nearly broke my bed Firday cause I was so pissed that I forgot the most important thing to my computer!

My staff x-mas party ws yesterday, along with my mothers caroling party.  Both were great fun!  However, I was sad to see that my friend Stacey has not gotten as mature as I thought she would be.  She kept saying that she knows carp about planning a wedding and I tell her, that her and her bridmaids would help her out and she kept reapecting the same thing over and over about how she doesn't know/  I love Stacey to death!  But I'm glad her and Dave are waiting till 2008 for this wedding...mentally she's still not ready yet.  Her mother wasn't happy at ALL.  I don't know how DAve got approval from them to ask Stacey the big question cause they are not one bit happy about this arragament.  

I'm very poor right now and I won't get pay again until AFTER Christmas....the cost of having your payday every-other Monday.
However I am babysitting for the Smiths Tuesday...that's cool cause I get 9 bucks an hour.

I'm done....can I have the last few weeks of my life back.

mood: crashed music: "We Three Kings"

I'm done....not really.  I have to turn in a report on Monday and then see if I left an important cord to my computer at my apartment.  Then I'm done.

Erica, Maggie, Nicole, and Jess:  Can you guys come to my party the 22nd....I need an answer now!

mood: indescribable music: "12 Days of Christmas"

I cried when I read Kasey's post. The thing that needs to be understood...is that I'm not giving up on you guys...I'm giving up on myself. But thanks Kasey...I will think on those words.

Kasey, I do have faith in you guys, I love you all, and I didn't mean that you guys are like the 'friends' (or so I thought they were) in middle school. I learned that I didn't have friends...cause of me. YOU guys have been so strong and have given me a lot of slack for my problems (much, much more then I deserve). That's what I am saying, you guys deserve a much better friend then me.

I failed you all...ME. Not you, it would never be you guys....you're all too wonderful.

I guess what I am saying is that I want to be a better friend. I don't trust myself with you guys...I don't trust myself to not hurt you guys.

I do have faith in you guys....god I do. You guys are the only thing in my life that is keeping me from...hurting myself...physically. Yes, I do have those thoughts. And no one knows, but now you guys do. I sit in my room sometimes thinking...If I bleed, the pain in my heart will go away and it'll prove that I am alive. Then I'll go to my door to go to the kitchen or bathroom to find something to cut myself with, but something stops me...you guys. Why do you think I have sooooo many pictures in my room, that I am so scared that college will tear us apart? The pictures of you guys stop me and I think...they won't let me do it. If they found out...I would get the leatures of all leatures, and they'll do it cause they love me, they care, they want me here. And that's why I sit back down and cry my feelings out, put back on my mask and move on for one/two more day(s) before it repeats itself. Everytime, it's you guys that stop me.

You guys are my strength......But I can't stand hurting you guys over and over.

I would like to thank Erica, Harvey and Maggie for turning me into a Buffy freak:)
I just got down with the 2nd season and I getting the 3rd ASAP from Harvey. Now, I know that Maggie has two of his seasons, but if the 3rd is one of them, she better hurry up, cause I need to watch Buffy! I'll take skipping the 3rd and going to 4th if Maggie has the 3rd, but I don't want to do that.
I am acually tempted to get the seasons now, while they're cheap (for box sets). Though I have no money. When I get some I will. Maggie said something about buying the 7seasons box set and I buy her old DVD's for like 15 bucks, but I think you changed your mind Maggie? Oh well either way, I will watch Buffy again. Yes I took two days of my life and watched season 2 of Buffy in one weekend!

Ok, so I'll just stop talking about Buffy and ask again if anyone will like to visit shaffner with me this Saturday? Please, I don't want to ride the metro all by myself. Maggie, Erica, Jenny, Ally?????
It'll be all day. Shaffer, I was going to check metro times, but I was going to be there by lunch hour and then we could go out to eat at a place of your choice. Sound ok?

mood: crazy

Yea, I got sick at Dani's party. Than at 5:44 am i threw up on Sunday. Missed work Monday. Good thing I got over, what ever it was, before Christmas. However I had fun at Dani's party and I LOVED THE GIFTS. Laura St, I have your bag to give back to you and it still has candy in it. Kasey, I still have a gift for you, so please make it to a party or get together some time for me to give it to you!!!!

It'll be cold to night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mood: cold music: Hanukkah Song/Mary's Boy Child/Here We Come A Caroling

Hopefully I'll be going out tonight. I have my heart montior, feels weird. But it is only on for 24 hours, I'll get over it.
I just remember I have a project due tomorrow for math. Alnighter time! Though, that is nothing new to me.
The weather here SUCKS! Sandi, can I come and visit? LOL

mood: crappy music: 'So This is Christmas' (War is Over)

I have Photo tonight and there is a new CSI on tonight!!!!!! YEA!!!!!!!!!!!! Nearly had a heart attack last night. THEY ALMOST KILLED OFF CHARLIE ON LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I nearly died. When he started breathing again (after Jack nearly broke his ribs with very forceful cpr) I cried tears of joy.

Nothing much here, got out of class really early. Cause everyone passed their first exam we don't have to take the 2nd. So she told us are grades and we went home. Another good deal is that I don't have class next week on Thursday. YEA!!!!!! I am actually happy, not forced happy. It has been a great week. And I am getting less nervous about my math exam. Best I have felt since summer. I guess, though I am not over my depression, but with school ending and the idea that I will finally spend time with the people who made my life great, I think that my depression is getting weaken tempoarly. Sounds dumb, but I don't know how else to explain it.

mood: mad at Lost music: 'Do You Hear What I Hear'

Hey what is up!!!!!! Man, I got a shit load of hw! Looks like a all nighter night...just what I need.
So how is everyone?!!!? Not much expect that I am still sick! It will not go away and tomorrow is my long day...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!






Like my mood icon? It's a sun....I love suns.....YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mood: sick and tried music: 'I Need Someone To Love'

Erica's on!!!!!! Everyone, she fanilly stopped being lazy!!!!!

I think that this x-mas thing just got very confuseing. Dani, if the 18th does not work out is their away that I can help you out and find a day that suits everyones needs? I understand what Sandi is saying, my first night back I'd want to be with my parents too. I mean, that party doesn't need to be in Dec. We can do what we did one year, have a after x-mas party. I mean people in Maryland run the Christmas season till the beginning of Feb. anyways.
Oh, and whoever is coming down for Thanksgiving...whos up for a 'Thanksgiving' party?
Well, I have decide that I am going to get 80% of my x-mas shopping done this weekend. I want to get it over with so I don't have to worry about the crazy Christmas shoppers after Thanksgiving.

Still sick, and next Firday I'm going to the doctors to see why I'm not sleeping more than four hours a night (five if I had a good day). My mom thinks that the main reason why my cold is lasting so long is because of my depression and lack of sleep...so she's hoping that the doctor can solve at least my sleeping problem.

mood: sicky sick